1. Sleeping an hour past the alarm clock.
2. Booking Rail Tickets from Washington DC to New York City.
3. Researching Space Shuttle launches.
4. Signing up for a free Myki card.
5. Cursing the Australian Embassy in Washington's laziness in not assisting its citizens to negotiate the red-tape required for a White House Tour.
6. Internet Banking.
7. Finishing all remaining Christmas pastries in the house.
8. Searching for books that I found last time I looked for them.
9. Moisterising.
10. Discussing the horses of Kyneton and garbage truck disasters on the Great Ocean Road with boys.
I am avoiding trying to decide what it is I am writing my thesis about. As mentioned already, I am looking at Nip/Tuck and The Picture of Dorian Gray. I am getting confused about what it is to actually study literature. In my undergraduateness I would just go to an extreme end of a theory and see if I could argue it. One day I would be a Marxist, the next a Feminist and the next a Formalist. I am a literary chameleon. I like to act and take on the colours of a theory; play around in its skin. I don't actually hold any beliefs. Its the ultimate in fence sitting. Now I feel I have to really have some sort of theory. It's hard. I started wanting to argue something along the lines of the pathological narcissist being the new 'ideal' which people in the Western world aim toward. I seem to want to make comment on the deterioration of society. It seems to come out like a lecture. Now I am thinking along the lines of whether it is considered better, in our here and now, to look good than to be good. And, I am beginning to think that you could argue that individualisation and the self-creation of morals allows for that to be true; that in order to make meaning in the twenty-first century we look to self-creation and decadence as opposed to what is deemed 'naturally' moral--that is what comes from a moral code that proceeds us but is in truth no less 'fake' than this approach. You see, in my sub-conscious this all makes sense. It is just when I try to put it down in words that it starts to sound like someone let me out of a funny-farm.
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